So I've been debating lately what I'm going to do after graduation. I realize that is cliche for someone in my position, however I still have mixed feelings. Not so much because I don't know what I'm going to do right after, I have every intention of going to seminary, but after that is when I begin to get a bit a cloudy.
When I first decided to attend NCC I did so for a couple reasons. I had decided that civil engineering wasn't for me, also I felt like Pastoral Ministry was for me.
I've come to a point in my life where Pastoral Ministry (as it is traditionally described) isn't exactly what I would term a perfect fit for me. In recent years I've come to realize that I don't have the patience to work in a setting that is as theoretical and (in my opinion) moot as a church in the United States. I've come to realize that in my heart I feel as though there are other places and walks of life where I can accomplish far more for God than I could possibly accomplish as a senior pastor.
I'm not sure what this looks like, does this mean I can't work in a church as a senior pastor? Hardly, I actually do enjoy delivering sermons and many of the other pieces that go along with it. Does it mean that I do work in the non-profit sector, working for human rights there? Perhaps. Does it mean that I focus on human rights abroad? Potentially.
Right now I'm in such a place of flux in my life, what I decide to do now can easily forever change how I live out the rest of my life. (God is in there somewhere too...) Perhaps I should wait until after I get back from the Cambodia trip... Almost assuredly I should wait until I get a ways into seminary.
Wherever I end up going, whatever I end up doing, I know that I can work for the good.
It's just the getting there that's scary.
